can you please just take a hint and STOP bothering me?! I am not flaring up only because I still treasure this friendship and I know how you would feel if I were to say the things I'm feeling right now. BUT that doesnt mean my patience is LIMITLESS. I cant guarantee how much longer I can refrain myself from just screaming at you.
FYI, I wish to study hard too but YOU always spoil my mood for studying. I have no reason for this sudden change of mindset but all I can say is, I'm TIRED of having to keep repeating the same thing OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
friends
i used to think that i could be a successful loner or recluse but i was wrong. apparently i cant stand life without anyone to talk to.
i used to think that i had a wide social circle with many close friends to confide in as well. but i was wrong again.
friends. a necessity in our lives yet it drains us even as it fills our day with joy and laughter. seems like i cant live without them yet i am weary of the whole getting-to-know-you process.
old friends. everyone seems to be getting on with a new chapter of their lives, getting to know new friends and adapting to their new social circle.
guess it's just like what dan had once said, it is not just about the sense of being tossed aside again. things change, people change. we have all made new friends and changed our perspectives because of life, no matter willingly or not. things can never go back to being the same. so we can only cling on to memories and get on with life.
for those who have remained, some have became too clingy that made it difficult, if not impossible to speak to them though i fear of speaking too harshly because ultimately, i still treasure the friendship.
new friends. a tiring yet constant process in our life. have certainly made some new friends, some which are acquaintances and some which i feel more comfortable conversing with. but as usual, i fear getting too close too fast without the assurance that the forwardness is welcomed. maybe im getting paranoid, but it does seem at times that my presence is annoying, if not dreaded.
confrontation would do no good since im sure no one would admit it though they might feel that way. guess the only way is simply to stop seeking out the person isnt it? i hope i have the will to follow this through.
i know im a petty and irrational person but since i really cant accept being in the same social circle as someone, the only logical solution is simply to retreat isnt it? unfortunately, im not as noble as others think me to be. to some, it may be a great sacrifice but from my point of view, i guess it is more of a cowardly and self-preserving act isnt it? better to seek out newer friends or opportunities to know new friends than cling on to what i could never have since i have never belonged.
i used to think that i had a wide social circle with many close friends to confide in as well. but i was wrong again.
friends. a necessity in our lives yet it drains us even as it fills our day with joy and laughter. seems like i cant live without them yet i am weary of the whole getting-to-know-you process.
old friends. everyone seems to be getting on with a new chapter of their lives, getting to know new friends and adapting to their new social circle.
guess it's just like what dan had once said, it is not just about the sense of being tossed aside again. things change, people change. we have all made new friends and changed our perspectives because of life, no matter willingly or not. things can never go back to being the same. so we can only cling on to memories and get on with life.
for those who have remained, some have became too clingy that made it difficult, if not impossible to speak to them though i fear of speaking too harshly because ultimately, i still treasure the friendship.
new friends. a tiring yet constant process in our life. have certainly made some new friends, some which are acquaintances and some which i feel more comfortable conversing with. but as usual, i fear getting too close too fast without the assurance that the forwardness is welcomed. maybe im getting paranoid, but it does seem at times that my presence is annoying, if not dreaded.
confrontation would do no good since im sure no one would admit it though they might feel that way. guess the only way is simply to stop seeking out the person isnt it? i hope i have the will to follow this through.
i know im a petty and irrational person but since i really cant accept being in the same social circle as someone, the only logical solution is simply to retreat isnt it? unfortunately, im not as noble as others think me to be. to some, it may be a great sacrifice but from my point of view, i guess it is more of a cowardly and self-preserving act isnt it? better to seek out newer friends or opportunities to know new friends than cling on to what i could never have since i have never belonged.
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