Mood Swinging again

Hmmm started the day feeling rather irritated and gloomy for some unknown reasons. Perhaps it was the unceasing ringing of the alarm clock or maybe it was my dad's endless naggings about how he's going to be late for work if I dont get ready by 6.30 and call yinghao to be down by that time too. Whatever it is, something just snapped inside me and I had a mini-quarrel with my dad in the car, meaning I had my 2 sentences before he blast me continuously and I have to shut up.

So went school with only a clip file and a lecture pad coz there isnt much lessons for today. Was being guai and listening, ABSORBING (for once) wang xin wu's cheemo teachings when I received this sms that spoilt my day again. From ms lum to tf, me and all the other grp leaders, the sms is basically about how she has oral duty from 2-5pm so she cant make it for our meeting at 4pm but we’re to go ahead with our own rehearsals. And then, tf and I are supposed to welcome the new-comers to the group. Guess what? Of ALL the overseas attachment programs available in hwa chong, I JUST have to end up in the same program as the no. 1 猪八戒. What the !$@%@$% hell la! The sms totally spoil my day and add it to a already depressed mood, I was rather on the verge of just bursting out into tears right in front of wang xin wu lo. What’s worse is that tf actually DARES to LAUGH and snicker after reading the sms, saying crap stuff like happy working together or something. I consider it a miracle that I didn’t hit him when he said that.

Went maths lesson feeling moody and then, Boo just has to return us our block test paper today. Since I’ve already decided that I’d be lucky to even pass maths, I wasn’t very enthu about the returning of papers but being the kpo me, I went forward to ask mrs boo how did we do and surprisingly, she said we did much better than our lecture test. So I felt better and was looking forward to receiving my paper back, especially after seeing the high scores that shiting, lijie and various others got. HOWEVER, there were only a few “high” passes before all the failed papers start to surface and I got demoralised again. (if even borui fails, how can I possibly do well?!) Therefore, you can probably imagine my utter shock at seeing my paper with a 58 written on it. Obviously it isnt much to muggers in my class like shiting, yujay and guanhui but for someone who has been constantly failing maths since sec 3, I would say this is a remarkable achievement indeed! Yup so the paper cheered me up considerably, especially after I had one more mark added due to some mistakes on mrs boo’s behalf. Or perhaps I just had a more unique way of presenting my workings. :P

After ending maths lesson on a more cheerful note, went to find my dear snr to talk to but evil him was busy talking to someone else so I went to have lunch with my class after all. Haha just realised that shiting makes a very amusing companion. oh n I saw some unexpected person in school today which gave me a rather pleasant surprise. =) lijie was behaving spas-tically in her attempt to see the features of the person clearly which was very hilarious. :D

Just to mention, this is the BEST econs lecture that I’ve been to since the start of the year. Omg the lecturer is FUNNY la!! Haha she looks like a little girl too though I couldn’t see her clearly from where I was sitting, right at the back of the LT. >< oh well.. but her lecture was at least entertaining and I didn’t fall asleep! Woohoo! I’m so proud of myself today lo. The previous lecturer makes me wanna fall asleep though I know whatever he’s teaching is very important and relevant but… I just couldn’t help it. :(

Had a useless pw lecture and lesson which I felt was not very productive. Haiz stress is piling up again and datelines are back to haunt us.

Went to poolside to talk to snr for a while before going salt centre with xiaowen to learn the Indian dance. Bole chuliyan is SO difficult la! Argh I rather learn shava shava lo! At least it’s EASIER and the moves are much easier! Actually it’s just that bole chuliyan has tons of hips shaking la BUT my hips are totally NOT flexible at all! Which’s why I was having a hard time grasping the dance steps. But all in all, personally I think we made quite a lot of progress in terms of our rehearsal today and that’s at least something to be happy about. :)

Hehe that just about sums up my “emotional” day today and I realised this is a very long post indeed. Good luck to those who managed to finish reading all the ramblings. :P

P.s: my mum rocks!! She bought me a super nice watch last sat when we’re out eating breakfast and doing some light shopping at bpp. I like my watch!! :D haha I think she meant it to be my birthday present though the way she phrased it, she sounds as though she’s just preventing me from asking my dad for a watch on my birthday cause that’d be after the GST hike. -.-“

《北极星的眼泪》

破裂了的感情就像断了线的风筝，从此消失于辽阔的天空中。

听着张栋梁的《北极星的眼泪》，不由得觉得有些感伤。不知是因为这首歌看似我现在生活的写照，还是因为我现在的心情糟透了。

《北极星的眼泪》
像断了线
消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去
你的脸
再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在
两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着
爱不见

再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在
两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着
爱不见

当对的人
等不到对的时间
就在放放开手的瞬间
爱撕成两边
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱
不见
整个宇宙都
流眼泪


是啊，在茫茫人海中我们竟然如此有幸认识了对方。缘份也许就是那么微妙，有缘人千里能相会，两条平行线也总有交叉的一天。

这一路走来，我们的友谊历经不少波折，彼此之间的距离也拉近了不少。但只可惜，到最后，我们终究没法做到“永远的友谊”。拉远了的心让我看不到，也感觉不到你的踪影。

友谊不论再怎么坚定，一旦失去了彼此的信息，再坚固的感情也会有动摇的一天。在我们没了话题可聊的那一刻起，我们之间仅剩的默契也随即消失了。

将心比心，我想我亏欠你的也太多太多了，所以我也没资格说些什么。

究竟是谁变了？我想，这已不再重要。