心情的跷跷板

最近似乎无法控制自己的情绪，总是穿梭于开心与难过之间。不知为什么就突然觉得好累好累。厌倦了千篇一律的生活，对周遭的事感到厌恶，对自己毫无把握。真的讨厌这样的自己，不过却又无法改变。已经尽量地在控制自己火爆的脾气不过却又常常受不了他人的刺激。真是自找的麻烦。

发现自己每年到了年底时就会有种想放弃一切的感觉，身心疲惫得只想用假期来好好补充一下自己的精力。为什么会把自己搞得这么累我也不知道。是我太不自量力，总把与自己无关的事往身上揽，还是我的时间分配有问题？我想两者都有吧。

考完试了不是应该开心的吗？可是偏偏就开心不起来。心里闷闷不乐的但却还得装嬉皮笑脸，心事有谁知？刚发现原来真正了解我并能与他们谈心事的人还真的少得可怜。虽有着众人所认为的广大社交圈子，不过我这才发现，原来知心朋友只有一个。在我生病发高烧时，也只有你一个会关心我，每天的慰问简讯真的令人感动。在我有任何困难时，你不论在做些什么都总是会尽力帮助我，给予我最大的鼓励与支持。在我伤心难过的时候，也只有你在电话的另一头默默地听着我语无伦次的哭诉。我想我欠你的真的太多太多了。谢谢你这几年来的照顾，支持与关心。虽然未来仍是个未知数，不过真的很希望我们的友谊能长久下去，因为我想你应该是全世界上最了解我的人了吧。

过去的就应该让它过去，这话说得简单不过实践起来还真是困难。虽然说是我自己下的决定要拉远我们彼此之间的距离，但我仍会不经意的想起我们当初所拥有的一切。人有时就是这么践吧，口里说一套但心里却想另一套。不知道故事从这之后会如何发展，虽然希望我们能找回从前的那种默契，不过我想既然已作了决定，就不应该再后悔、期待故事会有另一个结局。3段不同的友谊，得来不易，不过却在转眼间消失得无影无踪。

刚大哭完一场后，发现原来泪水真的有治疗的功效。心里头原有的烦躁与不愉快全都在泪水的洗礼下被冲走了。虽然现在双眼肿得很厉害，不过我终于能心平气和的重新振作起来面对现有的挑战，一点痛和这比起来根本算不了什么。

Mood Swinging again

Hmmm started the day feeling rather irritated and gloomy for some unknown reasons. Perhaps it was the unceasing ringing of the alarm clock or maybe it was my dad's endless naggings about how he's going to be late for work if I dont get ready by 6.30 and call yinghao to be down by that time too. Whatever it is, something just snapped inside me and I had a mini-quarrel with my dad in the car, meaning I had my 2 sentences before he blast me continuously and I have to shut up.

So went school with only a clip file and a lecture pad coz there isnt much lessons for today. Was being guai and listening, ABSORBING (for once) wang xin wu's cheemo teachings when I received this sms that spoilt my day again. From ms lum to tf, me and all the other grp leaders, the sms is basically about how she has oral duty from 2-5pm so she cant make it for our meeting at 4pm but we’re to go ahead with our own rehearsals. And then, tf and I are supposed to welcome the new-comers to the group. Guess what? Of ALL the overseas attachment programs available in hwa chong, I JUST have to end up in the same program as the no. 1 猪八戒. What the !$@%@$% hell la! The sms totally spoil my day and add it to a already depressed mood, I was rather on the verge of just bursting out into tears right in front of wang xin wu lo. What’s worse is that tf actually DARES to LAUGH and snicker after reading the sms, saying crap stuff like happy working together or something. I consider it a miracle that I didn’t hit him when he said that.

Went maths lesson feeling moody and then, Boo just has to return us our block test paper today. Since I’ve already decided that I’d be lucky to even pass maths, I wasn’t very enthu about the returning of papers but being the kpo me, I went forward to ask mrs boo how did we do and surprisingly, she said we did much better than our lecture test. So I felt better and was looking forward to receiving my paper back, especially after seeing the high scores that shiting, lijie and various others got. HOWEVER, there were only a few “high” passes before all the failed papers start to surface and I got demoralised again. (if even borui fails, how can I possibly do well?!) Therefore, you can probably imagine my utter shock at seeing my paper with a 58 written on it. Obviously it isnt much to muggers in my class like shiting, yujay and guanhui but for someone who has been constantly failing maths since sec 3, I would say this is a remarkable achievement indeed! Yup so the paper cheered me up considerably, especially after I had one more mark added due to some mistakes on mrs boo’s behalf. Or perhaps I just had a more unique way of presenting my workings. :P

After ending maths lesson on a more cheerful note, went to find my dear snr to talk to but evil him was busy talking to someone else so I went to have lunch with my class after all. Haha just realised that shiting makes a very amusing companion. oh n I saw some unexpected person in school today which gave me a rather pleasant surprise. =) lijie was behaving spas-tically in her attempt to see the features of the person clearly which was very hilarious. :D

Just to mention, this is the BEST econs lecture that I’ve been to since the start of the year. Omg the lecturer is FUNNY la!! Haha she looks like a little girl too though I couldn’t see her clearly from where I was sitting, right at the back of the LT. >< oh well.. but her lecture was at least entertaining and I didn’t fall asleep! Woohoo! I’m so proud of myself today lo. The previous lecturer makes me wanna fall asleep though I know whatever he’s teaching is very important and relevant but… I just couldn’t help it. :(

Had a useless pw lecture and lesson which I felt was not very productive. Haiz stress is piling up again and datelines are back to haunt us.

Went to poolside to talk to snr for a while before going salt centre with xiaowen to learn the Indian dance. Bole chuliyan is SO difficult la! Argh I rather learn shava shava lo! At least it’s EASIER and the moves are much easier! Actually it’s just that bole chuliyan has tons of hips shaking la BUT my hips are totally NOT flexible at all! Which’s why I was having a hard time grasping the dance steps. But all in all, personally I think we made quite a lot of progress in terms of our rehearsal today and that’s at least something to be happy about. :)

Hehe that just about sums up my “emotional” day today and I realised this is a very long post indeed. Good luck to those who managed to finish reading all the ramblings. :P

P.s: my mum rocks!! She bought me a super nice watch last sat when we’re out eating breakfast and doing some light shopping at bpp. I like my watch!! :D haha I think she meant it to be my birthday present though the way she phrased it, she sounds as though she’s just preventing me from asking my dad for a watch on my birthday cause that’d be after the GST hike. -.-“

《北极星的眼泪》

破裂了的感情就像断了线的风筝，从此消失于辽阔的天空中。

听着张栋梁的《北极星的眼泪》，不由得觉得有些感伤。不知是因为这首歌看似我现在生活的写照，还是因为我现在的心情糟透了。

《北极星的眼泪》
像断了线
消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去
你的脸
再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在
两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着
爱不见

再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在
两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着
爱不见

当对的人
等不到对的时间
就在放放开手的瞬间
爱撕成两边
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱
不见
整个宇宙都
流眼泪


是啊，在茫茫人海中我们竟然如此有幸认识了对方。缘份也许就是那么微妙，有缘人千里能相会，两条平行线也总有交叉的一天。

这一路走来，我们的友谊历经不少波折，彼此之间的距离也拉近了不少。但只可惜，到最后，我们终究没法做到“永远的友谊”。拉远了的心让我看不到，也感觉不到你的踪影。

友谊不论再怎么坚定，一旦失去了彼此的信息，再坚固的感情也会有动摇的一天。在我们没了话题可聊的那一刻起，我们之间仅剩的默契也随即消失了。

将心比心，我想我亏欠你的也太多太多了，所以我也没资格说些什么。

究竟是谁变了？我想，这已不再重要。

random ramblings + possibility of mood swing

im seriously just going to collapse from either exhaustion/frustration/lack of sleep one of these days, most probably before blocks. this might just be one of my mood swings again i dont know but whatever it is, i feel that i've wasted my whole hols doing crap and not spending it wisely.

my revision are screwed up BADLY, meaning barely started on it, my pw is dying like dont what because im such an irresponsible group leader who has yet to inform my group members on what they are supposed to do. but thing now is, im a sucky person who dont understand the focus of the project and how it's going to continue. how in the world am i supposed to think of what needs to be done and allocate the jobs in that case?

i realise i suck. nevermind.

BLOCKS!

quick update before im off for more mugging. im so so so screwed! have barely started on my revision and hols are already coming to an end. dunno but my hols just seemed to be crammed with useless stuff. or perhaps it's just me who's still slacking. who knows.

whatever it is, i need to find my drive back! mug!! gahh someone please motivate me to study instead of slacking around after less than 5 mins of attempted studying. im in desperate need of tutors now.. :(

2 wks are looking as though they'll pass damn fast and there's still PW!! argh im so dead! =( at this rate i probably wun even live to see my bdae. :(

七彩世界黯淡了

学着独立起来

尽管百般的不愿意但又如何？这，应该是人生中必经历的一段吧？

我想我应该是个容易被人遗忘的人。。即使遍体鳞伤也无人在乎，生活还真是可悲。

算了，现在说这些又有什么用？一切都已不再重要了。唯一能做的应该只有咬紧牙关，熬过这一切吧。不过，纸上谈兵果真比实际行动来的容易多。

我想，我真的已经累了。累到无力去整理自己乱七八糟的生活，无力去调理自己复杂的心情。对周遭的一切漠不关心，甚至是倍感反感，相信这应该不是原来的我吧？是我改变了还是这一切都只是因为我在闹脾气呢？

我也不知道。

算了，说再多又能如何？还不是依旧改变不了自己微不足道的事实。反正大哭大闹都不能解决问题，生闷气也无人会过问。与其做这些伤害自己的事情，还倒不如放下一切，自己一人过着宁静的生活。

我想我是真的厌倦永远被排放在第二位置的感觉了。所以，我一定会学着独立，试着坚强的。

一个人的世界虽寂寞、灰暗，但我却已无力再次忍受被遗忘的伤痛。破碎了的心不论怎么修补，曾经有过的裂痕是永远都抹篾不掉的。

就这么最后一次，让不听话的眼睛再任性一次吧。


累坏了，
伤透了，
心，也碎了。

Badminton Outing! =)

badminton outing is FUN! personally i think it was quite a success since 10/11 of the girls turned out and most of us stayed over! quite a number of guys came too and i was quite surprised that chenjia actually turned up and stayed over. didnt know he was so enthu! :D but anw, blades of glory was INTERESTING.. haha so much sexual insinuation la and it rated PG can!! jinglin, mabel and i were laughing like crazy and jinglin even laughed till she cried! haha so dramatic! so it was not a bad choice given the fact that we had wanted to watch pirates initially. wonder when would i have the time to watch it now.

after watching such a hilarious movie, it's finally time to meet the rest who didnt want to come for the movie. went to vivomart first to get some supplies for bbq later i think and also ALCOHOL! hehe thankfully we've our dear seniors with us who are 18! haha i never knew that jinny is an alcohol EXPERT! she looked so pro debating with weilun and qihui which type of alcohol to buy and which one taste nicer! bought barcadi with 37.5% alcohol content in the end. think it is the first time that i drink any wine with such high alcohol content?? cause usually my family only drinks red wine or champagne and my dad doesnt really allow me to drink any other stronger alcoholic drinks. haha then the rest of the guys were being lame and wanted to buy shampoo or something, i cant really remember, for wensheu. oh and one major discovery i made during the trip was, wensheu knows lynn and grace!! omg la! i had a big shock when i saw wensheu together with lynn at vivomart. apparently they knew each other during the new zealand trip lynn went in sec 2. what a small world indeed!

went mrt to wait for chenjia den proceed to bus stop to wait for tingyu before boarding the bus to wensheu's hse. and OMG!! his hse is BEAUTIFUL! haha to quote from baojun "this is my dream house already". i mean, obviously this isnt my first time in a semi-d (or was it a terrrace?) BUT his 3 storey(!) house is very nice!! ahhh i like his room the most! now i regret not taking pictures of it.. :( his house has such a nice warm and cozy feeling to it!

anyway, was quite surprised to see baojun, deanna and tongyuan there already busy helping out with the bbq. haha i was still wondering how come they never join us.. hmmm then needless to say, the girls ended up being the ones bbq-ing and the guys just happily sat down and TALK! wth la! absolutely NO gentlemanly manners at all! gahh but there are still SOME nice guys seniors la! like qihui and tongyuan who helped us out. =) haha forgot who told me this but someone was telling me that yibing and tongyuan are very compatible together cause both are super nice people and always helping others out. :D

after some time at the bbq pit, i finally got to eat and i'm proud to say that chicken wings have become my fav again! haha other than the fact that it's very difficult to eat, BBQ chicken wing rocks! so yummy and you can just feel the oil oozing out as you bite in! FANTASTIC!! :D

haha went strolling round wensheu's neighbourhood with baojun after eating and both of us were basically ooh-ing and ahh-ing over all the houses then dreaming of having one for ourselves in the future. oh and we saw this UNIQUE house which was built like a ship. DAMN COOL!! haha which reminds me, when we were walking to wensheu's house earlier in the day, we walked past this beautiful house and everyone stopped walking for a few moments to admire it. there's a difference though, the girls were admiring the deco and design of the house whereas the guys stopped to admire the sleek red sports car parked inside. -.-"

nothing much after that as the guys continue their talking and playing of PS, i think, at the 3rd level of wensheu's house. they were SO NOISY that we could hear them through the closed door of wensheu's room on the 2nd storey?! haha the girls happily occupied wensheu's room as our own and started playing CARDS in there! :D woohoo chao fun! i missed playing bridge with so many people!! and we kept bugging baojun to beg her parents to let her stay too cause it might just be the last sleepover badminton is having and so she shouldn't miss it. plus all her NICE and CUTE juniors miss her so she should stay! haha so poor baojun ended up calling her parents three times and YIPPIE! she finally got permission to stayover! :D haha we were all so happy la! can tell that baojun is WELL-LOVED by her juniors.. hehe..

the girls took turns to bathe after that and baojun being the first to bath, had the first look at wensheu's bathroom and she was stunned! haha all the girls went over to oooh and ahhh over his bathroom after that cause it looks as though it's some hotel bathroom!! damn nice! if im not wrong, it has a marble table and a bath tub. furthermore, it's BIG!! oh my goodness lo! haha baojun said something which i think echoed everyone's sentiments, "if i can stay in this house, i'll have no more wishes le" ahhh i like wensheu's house!!

after much exclaiming, we went downstairs to watch this gory jap movie (battle royale i think) where students are abandoned on an island and they are supposed to kill each other till there's only one survivor who will win the "game". it's something like lord of the flies and i didnt really enjoy it since i wasnt in the mood to think and feel. haha but weilun had AMUSING expressions while watching the show. he was sitting in the rocking chair looking like an old grandpa when there was this part where someone was about to get killed quite brutally. he quickly ducked his head and peeked out his eyes from the sofa in front of him. very funny pose which i totally didn't expect from him! haha i realise he's full of surprises, or perhaps i just had a lot of misconceptions about him previously. but anw, jinny opened the bottle of alcohol and we mixed it with F&N grape to drink. wensheu the pro drank it without mixing! haha jinny and i were shocked when he say he dont need to mix it with any other drink. :O mabel drank quite a bit and her face turned red. haha then she went toilet for such a long time that we thought she'd vomitted so went to find her. turns out she was hiding cause her face was flushed red. >< jinglin and her eventually decided to chiong out once the door is open. i think jinglin and her were the only two to feel discomfort after drinking alcohol ba. jinny and i were still ok though jinny's face was a bit flushed too.

hmm the rest of them watched another show after that but i was getting bored so went back to wensheu's room to play snap with mabel n jinglin. haha mabel was so funny la! will have that exasperated and irritated look on her face whenever she fails to get the cards. haha and being the one with the slowest reflex, i ended up losing both rounds which took up quite a lot of time and refreshed us up too. haha but while we were playing, some of the guys came in and went to lie down on wensheu's bed so we were wondering whether we should leave and let them have their sleep when we heard nigel saying "eh dont sleep hor." repeatedly so we continued playing. :D haha but there was a period of time when it was really silent and it felt as though they were sleeping so we didnt dare to play for fear of waking them up. >< i think they finally realised our presence after some time cause the whole lot of them suddenly went out of the room to go upstairs. :D

after getting tired of snap, we went up and down the house trying to find some source of entertainment to no avail. luckily after our last trip downstairs, they found baojun waking up from her sleep so dragged her up to play daidee. michael, weilun, qihui, wensheu and tingyu came in after some time and played indian poker. >< haha then jo, mabel, jinglin and me went to play heart attack while they play bluff. both groups got tired of the games in the end and we decided to play BLACKJACK with $$! haha it was highly entertaining to say the least.

we were all lazy to go find our wallets so we devised a new form of payment using another deck of cards. facing up means have to pay the banker while facing down means the banker has to pay u. baojun was the first banker and she lost money sadly. then it was weilun's turn i think. he was losing to everyone except baojun who had 3 cards facing up. so he was saying he'll stop when baojun has 5 cards facing up and then, he got blackjack for the next round. -.-" was laughing like crazy after that. so after changing banker, this crazy person was feeling quite pro and decided to try his luck at 5 cards despite getting 16 with 4 cards already. he won the risk in the end and became so egoistic after that. >< haha cause tingyu is sort of blur about the game and was consulting jo and me when he say "ask me ask me! i very pro one!" obviously he got diaoed by us in the end but it was funny to hear him say that since he usually seems so guai and sensible.

hmm all of us took turns to be banker and it seems everyone lost $$ except for weilun and me. i was quite lucky to get 19, 20 and 21 for the three times that i was banker. haha then weilun n qihui were saying dont want me to be banker liaoz cause i very lucky. =) actually i had a blackjack too but cause i flipped open one of michael's card accidentally so they were all saying must re-shuffle. haha and michael got blackjack for that round too so he wouldnt have gotten $$ even if we continued.

after everyone had their turn at being banker thrice, we finally used up all our energy and decided to succumb to sleep. next thing i know, i was woken up by some talking and laughing sounds. turns out becky was enjoying herself taking photos of everyone sleeping. haha and weilun had a rather dramatic response so she decided to try waking him up with a strand of hair! but sadly, after she managed to wiggle her way to the back of the sofa, weilun woke up! >< so sad! haiz no show to watch le..

But, we discovered another thing about weilun after the sleepover! he's terrified of dogs cause he was chased by one when he was young. everyone was laughing at his response cause he will quickly run up the stairs whenever the dog approaches. dunno why too but the dog just seems to have a liking for him and kept going to find him. :D haha and nigel did something mean to the dog! they called for Mcdelivery at 2+am then the dog came over just when nigel was about to open his cheeseburger or sth so he quickly left it on the table. after that when the dog was lying down and ignoring weilun's stupid commands of sit and stand, nigel took up the still-wrapped cheeseburger and waved it some distance away from the dog just to get it to stand up. damn mean la!! evil!

haha that just about conclude my day with badminton people. oh and we went vivo for breakfast the next morn. i had noodles cause was afraid i will get gastric pain later. LUCKILY i ate such a heavy breakfast cause i fell asleep immediately when i reached home later in the day at 4+pm till 8.30am this morn. slept for a total of 16 HOURS with only a bowl of noodles eaten ytd morning in my stomach. it's a wonder i didnt get my famed gastric pains. but anw, reached home quite late ytd cause we went to play pool after breakfast or rather, tongyuan, qihui, michael, chenjia, becky, tingyu, wensheu and weilun played while nigel slept and mabel, jinglin, jo and i watched on. it was quite an interesting match cause i never knew that tongyuan can play pool so well! the four of them (qihui, chenjie, tongyuan and michael) look so pro playing la! haha but becky wasnt too bad either.. played 1 on 1 with weilun somemore. :D but it was FREEZING COLD in there! all of us (actually only the inactive ppl like me, jinglin, mabel and jo ><) were shivering like siao and i was wearing FBTs somemore! after nearly 2 hours of pool, they finally decided to go home! haha blur me followed jo and others out of the elevator and was wondering why mabel never follow when jo told me that to mrt, i should take the lift to B2. so i 似懂非懂地 went back to the about-to-close lift and continue my blur journey home. except that i went bp lib to stone for a while first before going home. :D

hehe that is all for my badminton outing cum movie cum bbq cum first sleepover. :D this long post is full of ramblings but nvm.. it still holds wonderful memories to be remembered and relived in the future. =)

exhilarating experience??

haha have a urge to blog today after a sudden realisation that i've been daoing my cute little blog for too long. :D anw, today was such an INTERESTING day!

haha smart me forgot to bring my passport size photo for the taiwan immersion program application form and today is like a super late time to hand in le la! the deadline was what, 30th april? i had actually filled up the form and brought everything ytd already but i didnt know it requires parents signature then guai me didnt want to forge signature so brought it home again to let dad sign. THEN to my utter horror, i realised on my way to school today that i left the photo in my report book which i conveniently took out from my bag this morning. :( haiz damn smart of me but nvm. so i had to rush to coro to take photo after i ponned sch legitimately at 10.30. haha felt so shuang to pon lessons when all i did after that was just to rot in the sch hall. =)

haiz but didnt manage to go for the interview in the end cause the stupid timing clashes. oh well, have to go find mr lee in pe dept tmr to settle the "short" interview. hopefully everything will be fine. :) haha tingyu and becky were so lame today la. i was fretting after badminton competition about whether nigel had helped me handed up the form or not (i stuffed the form into his hands as we were coming down the hall cause there was no one i recognise in the vicinity and i desperately need to hand it in by today, so just asked him to help me pass to ms lum and he was like "huh i dunno who's she" but all i had time to say was "pe dept. ok thanks ar!" before rushing off to catch the bus.) then tingyu and becky happily suaned him after i told them of my worries, saying what "oh he's a hemhem very responsible person. dont worry. he'll help you hand in de", "did he appear blur when you asked him to help you submit the form? if yes then it's ok. it's his usual expression. but if he look smart, then ar he's acting smart" 真是让人啼笑皆非。

badminton competition was SCARY! i somehow ended up as linesman for all 5 games of ACJC vs JJC matches then it was entertaining to say the least. but so sad i didnt manage to catch jo, xuerong, tingyu, becky, baojun, deanna and jinny in action. :( oh well. anw JJC's singles practically owned ACJC la! their first single is IMBA and totally just thrashed ACJC's 1st single like EFFORTLESSLY?! oh my la! but they were very unlucky in their doubles, making a lot of stupid and careless mistakes which could have been avoided. so it was 2-2 and the 2nd place for group stage boils down to the 3rd single. it was such a pity cause personally i think JJC's singles was better in terms of skills but her tactic was wrong. the ACJC girl wasnt as skillful but she can run. then somehow the JJC girl kept trying to make the ACJC person run all over the court instead of just smashing or netting the shuttlecock which the ACJC girl wouldnt have been able to take so easily. haiz sad story but basically JJC lost the 3rd set because the JJC person was just too impatient and made quite a couple of stupid mistakes. so deanna, jinny and i were still sitting at our linesman area when JJC'S top single walked past us to go to their school's territory, and we suddenly hear a loud bang of something smashing to the ground. we saw to our horror a broken racket snapped at its stem and strings that were all snapped too. the JJC top single then just walk straight on stonily to lean against the metal sheet. the 3 of us were so scared that we hurried away to our area, and then we suddenly hear lots of banging against the metal sheet and saw the girl kicking and smashing that poor metal sheet. apparently she went hysterical and started screaming that it's all the other girl's fault and so on. the coach tried to calm her down but she kept pushing him away that eventually he had to sort of shake her to get her to calm down and not be so hysterical. so scary!! haha but tiffany thinks that the hysterical girl episode is the only highlight of today's competition. evilevil :P

yupz that just about conclude the exciting day today and im going to sleep now! have bloodshot eyes for some unknown reason and it's so painful! :( couldnt even open my eyes properly la! haiz better go get some rest lest i have rabbit eyes next. nitez! =)

学着放下过去，向往未来

here's the lyrics of some song i found on my senior's blog and i found it to be rather meaningful. indeed, we should just let the past become history and concentrate on the future. it makes sense doesnt it? but sometimes, life juz doesnt go the logical way.

曲名：跟往事干杯

经过了许多事 你是不是觉得累
这样的心情 我曾有过几回
也许是被人伤了心 也许是无人可了解
现在的你我想一定很疲惫

人生际遇就象酒 有的苦有的烈
这样的滋味 你我早晚要体会
也许那伤口还流着血 也许那眼角还有泪
现在的你让我陪你喝一杯

干杯 朋友 就让那一切成流水
把那往事 把那往事当 当作一场宿醉
明日的酒杯莫再 要装着昨天的伤悲
请与我举起杯 跟往事干杯

how i wish i can just forget about the past and carry on with the future without any worries. maybe someday i will if i tell myself this long enough.

黄城夜韵’07 - 宣传组 - 《我们的回忆》

黄城夜韵'07 终于圆满落幕但多少人的心情也随着平复了呢？3个月的努力和付出就这样在观众的热烈掌声中默默地结束了，想起来还真是有点不甘心。在加入黄城这大家庭之前虽然知道结束时会是怎样的心情，但身在其中的感觉真的一点都不好受。回想起和宣传组所一起经历过的一切，每天准时4点钟到lep room报到、不到天黑不回家、几乎每天都一起出去吃饭、the endless discussions on banner, program booklet, huangcheng t-shirt, xuanchuan pullover, vt board design and etc，这些经验是多么的可贵、多么的难得。这感觉和回忆也非常的温馨，而我相信非黄城人是决不懂这种感受究竟是如何的。要不是因为有缘，相信我们这一群人也不会就此相遇，就此携手度过匆忙的两、三个月。有些人可能觉得这些话真的很cliche但他们确实是我黄城之旅的真实写照。要不是当时云舟的一番话，要不是因为当初我没进入票务，许多个“要不是”让我有缘和这一班宣传组员相遇，对于这些新结识的朋友，我也格外珍惜彼此之间难而可贵的友谊。相信不只是我，所有参与过黄城夜韵2007的人在今后的日子里都会look upon the days we shared together with fondness and wistness. the joy and satisfaction we shared were indeed worth all the hard work we had put in. no words would ever be enough to express all these intangible feelings, but hopefully pictures would be able to freeze some of the moments we shared, and store in eternal time what words cannot do.